How did my mother do it with two kids? That is a thought that pops in my head very frequently these days. Especially on days where I would just like to climb back into bed, pull the covers over my head and wish I could go back to sleep and wake up on a better day- like today! Fat chance of that happening!!
I thought in my mid- twenties I would be working in a reputed financial firm and be single, well, so much for that thought. I was married in my early twenties and have a toddler now. When I conceived I did think "How hard can bringing up a child be?". And the answer to that question is running around on two little feet needing constant supervision! How did I get that notion in my head? I looked at my mother who did her job with ease with two and I thought well, it will easier with one. But no, the job gets tougher when you have more than one!
when you have a child you step into the shoes of a mother, it never fits right. As your child grows, you grow with her. Just when you think you have figured out your child, they change growing up and as a mom you need to reinvent yourself and fit into bigger mommy shoes. There are times when I wish I could drop everything and go into hiding. There are days when I think "Why me?" "Do I really fit in this role?" or the biggest doubt "WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?". The questions can go on!
Having your own baby makes you realise you were never really good with babies, even if you have babysat before. Your child reaches out and makes you grow, not only as a mother but also a person. There are things that I have become more concerned about ,after my little girl arrived, I would never so much as give it an inkling of a thought before.
But at the end of the day, I know I will be happier and more ready to handle something for her when she wants me there. Right now, I am going to wait for little feet to feel tired and collapse into bed for the night, which is hours away!
I thought in my mid- twenties I would be working in a reputed financial firm and be single, well, so much for that thought. I was married in my early twenties and have a toddler now. When I conceived I did think "How hard can bringing up a child be?". And the answer to that question is running around on two little feet needing constant supervision! How did I get that notion in my head? I looked at my mother who did her job with ease with two and I thought well, it will easier with one. But no, the job gets tougher when you have more than one!
when you have a child you step into the shoes of a mother, it never fits right. As your child grows, you grow with her. Just when you think you have figured out your child, they change growing up and as a mom you need to reinvent yourself and fit into bigger mommy shoes. There are times when I wish I could drop everything and go into hiding. There are days when I think "Why me?" "Do I really fit in this role?" or the biggest doubt "WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?". The questions can go on!
Having your own baby makes you realise you were never really good with babies, even if you have babysat before. Your child reaches out and makes you grow, not only as a mother but also a person. There are things that I have become more concerned about ,after my little girl arrived, I would never so much as give it an inkling of a thought before.
But at the end of the day, I know I will be happier and more ready to handle something for her when she wants me there. Right now, I am going to wait for little feet to feel tired and collapse into bed for the night, which is hours away!
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